life without death

i missed the way you looked at me,
when nobody was watching.
i kissed the ground you lie under today.
i felt my heart stop to gather its notions.
i should stop breathing, just to see you sooner.
its this pain that radiates, it grows like a tumor.
i remember you so vividly, i thank god for these
memories, if not i would feel like an empty city.
no cars are running, no people are stunning.
you were taken from me without permission and
now i have to fill out that fake prescription.
i dont want to die to seal the deal
but i do want to die to feel you for real.
because you are the only thing that lets me know im alive.
so you whisper in my ear; if you keep on living, i will survive



ms.